Sunday, September 27, 2009
sometimes...i really just am nothing but talk...
i say all this magnificent game plan..or goals..or things that i would achieve...
in the end...they were all just empty dreams...vacant hopes... hollow determinations...
time and time...i failed myself....
i am sick of all this too...
i want to change...
i want to have the feeling...of putting everything i have and take my best shot...
i have never done that before....
the feeling you have, when you felt like you have nothing left...
and the only thing you can do..is to fight for it...
fight like it would be the last thing you will ever do...
fight like all hope is lost and that is your only hope.
in 5 days time...
i want to let this be the final grand challenge i would ever face at this moment..
and for all you know....from now on...
whatever i say i would do it... i WILL DO IT...
let this be a prove to all, a testimony,
if you want something really bad...
you have to fight for it..like this is your life...
i don't really believe in god...
but with the little belief i have...
may i do my best..and let me be blessed.
my last shot...
it's now or never, do or die..
breaking the boundaries and all limits..
i'm ready to go all out this time.
may i feel alive again. it's the last chance.
posted by jordan chung at Sunday, September 27, 2009 -
Thursday, September 10, 2009

just finish watching the bachelor rome...it happen to be the last episode whr the prince choose his princess ( he really is a prine in rome btw..) so after watching the show i lot of thoughts run through my head...somehow..
ok first point. this show is really sadist.. somehow it does not inflict physical pain...but of course much worse...emotional pain..so the main guy lorenzo was down to the last two girls...
Sadie and Jennifer.. of course after months and weeks of all the other 25 girls and the dates the time that they have..it was down to the last two. at this point of time, both girls are deeply in love with lorenzo, and both surely gave their hearts to him...always knowing that there was another girl he might choose..but they still gave it all in. and during the time, when lorenzo rejects sadie..my that was heartbreaking... picture this..you are sadie now...you tot you would be the one, and deeply emotional to the guy..and in the end..he tells you..you are not the one.. that kind of pain..only she knows...definitely unthinkable.. so i mean the show is really a sadist...i mean giving false hope to ppl and crashing it up might possibly be the worst kind of thing that can happen to your life..and with that kind of pain...i can say hoho..gg
in another perspective, lorenzo might seem to be the happiest guy now...you are the prince, choosing from 25 girls and one would be the ONE....oooooooooooooo definitely best shit right?
but as you get along..you notice you have deep feelings for both girls....and you know very well you have to choose one...and by choosing one, you have to reject the other...( yes oh come on...be real now shall we?) and it definitely feel bad...for him...that kind of feeling to reject someone who gives you her all...everything.. you know you had to be responsible...and when you know you made that choice. it can be pretty painful..
another interesting fact i notice...well recently i'm into the whole mentalist thing ( yes that USA top tv series with simon baker? brilliant actor) which you kind to predict the body language and minor details..? so i tot it would be fun to predict whether sadie or Jennifer would be the girl that lorenzo would choose...so the first 45 mins of the show...they show that the time the both girls share they moments with lorenzo...and i tot Sadie might be the girl? like from the way they talk to each other, the kiss and everything( sadie and lorenzo had a more passionate kiss than jennifer lo...) and in the end he choose jennifer.. so it brings me to this point.. love sometimes you cant really judge or guage or something that can be speculate..it's something that is always there,but somehow..you know you cant get hold of it...
or maybe the other point is that the body language thing is bullshit..or maybe i still noob at seeing..
so? a food for thought... wheres your other half tonight?
posted by jordan chung at Thursday, September 10, 2009 -
Monday, September 07, 2009
"I have loved to the point of madness;
That which is called madness,
That which to me,
Is the only sensible way to love."
F. Sagan
posted by jordan chung at Monday, September 07, 2009 -
Saturday, September 05, 2009
with this hand,i will lift your sorrows..
and may your cup will never be empty, for i will be your wine
posted by jordan chung at Saturday, September 05, 2009 -
worlds apart, that don't collide...
best analogy man....
in any case the whole week was very lethargic for me....my irregular sleeping hours had caught up with me so bad....
sleep at 2...wake at 7...den afternoon slp till 7pm...at night cant sleep.....
even weekends i don't have a good night sleep... -_-
sian it started from sec 2 till nw....oh man...next time should try sleep at 8 pm or stm...den wake at 7am...sure shiok one...
so many movies i want to watch but don't have the time or the companion....sian...or well wait 1 plus month nia....
in the mean time...i had to use the sep holiday super wisely..if not i this year sure go NS....
even if there is such a dreadful possibility...i believe i will experience jc2 alright....though sudden bad de javus been hunting me real bad.
in any case...just study lo....not like a hav anything to lose anyways...hoho...dun tell me i can't last for a month?? that would be a joke..
in any case...a have to endure the mundane and the boredomness of my life now...but i guess you reap what you sow...tahan and i will see paradise damm soon....( not in the morbid way....damm i'm a pessimist )
in any case work hard all...and we'll all hang out soonnn..i hope.
finally i found this very interesting picture....it sort of reminds me what happen when the movie 'UP' failed and the old guy's balloons got burst.

hope my balloons don't burst.
posted by jordan chung at Saturday, September 05, 2009 -
Thursday, September 03, 2009
hahaha....well the days have been pretty mundane...but i still can cope with it...
somehow i need to start having some quality time with de class boys...hoho...
in any case one month left...i shld do very realistic time table to suit my needs...
well things should be going smoothly...provided i dun procrastinate..
in any case...after the exams...so many things to do!
i will so look forward to it....woosh
posted by jordan chung at Thursday, September 03, 2009 -