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Thursday, December 29, 2011
I have no idea why i'm even here... but somehow... i am..
well since the last entry..it's been THAT long... i doubt anyone will come here anymore..might as well all the more i can blog about it and let it be a little pricate space...well since the last post..millions of things hav been happening.. i'm in the army..i myself have changed.. more of a realist than a pesimist now...but i guess it's pretty much all the same. On another note...today isthe 29 of dec 2011... marks the last few days till the end of the year.. it's really been a year of battling inner demons, hopes, dreams and stuff that's really personal... cause as i'm serving now...i'm basically on auto pilot mode, which i have a lot of time to myself. Honestly, i was really lost.. i could not find any future, any hope, or anything to hold on to as a matter of fact..i have no clue where to go.. what's the next move, what's the plan... it's always constantly on my mind..and so many questions..but little answers or enlightenment..i was always frustrated, always depress. However.. time pass.. i don't know when.. i got tired..tired of standing still, tired of being depress, tired of being lost..i want it to be where i used to be...full of spunk. full of ideas..full of hope. sense of where to go... i guess friends, family help a little..but mostly i think it's personal attitute.. i'm not really a fighter..but i'm not yet a quitter.. i'm still young, i still can learn, i still have determination.. and i guess serving does help a little.. it gives me some fighting spirit back.. well it still been a constant struggle out of being jaded, being depress..but things seem to be better.. everyday i'm finding new hope..things to pick me up.. little by little.. finding the strength to carry on..and living the moment..like a used to.
posted by jordan chung at Thursday, December 29, 2011 - 
